Today after i left cheryl house, i felt so bad! I needed a taxi ride home, i walked out of her condo's main entrance and saw so much people waiting outside too. People standing in front of me, wanting to cut my queue, i got really pissed off. So i sat down and waited by the kerb side. After thinking about what happened, i broke into tears, i really needed to cry to feel better....
I finally found a taxi, but it was already damn late liao, 7.55pm. I had to rush back home, but i looked at the watch and sulked....
In the taxi, i told myself that i needed to write to feel better, so i took out my Hp and started typing and saving those short messages, this was what i wrote:
Today is the unhappiest day of my life. Early in the morning, i was late for a basketball match because i had to go home to replace my one side of contact lens which dropped out unknowingly. Worse still we lost the match, i think it was partly my fault and the stupid rain that ruined everything. I didnt guard the opponent properly and gave them so much chance to score. Some more rain, our centre, vincent, was like falling and sliding off all the time, so hard to play.We won two matches and won one. After the defeat, i needed someone to eat lunch with me but i ended up eating alone. Asked around, all say not free. i always thought that cheryl will always be there when i needed company. Didint know what made mi think that way, but she couldnt do it. Then i quarreled with her, i knew i was wrong by forcing something on her, i didnt know how to apolgise, it was all my fault anyway, some bloody loser i am! I kept quiet all the while because i was feeling like shit. Then she asked mi why we can be together for so long, i told her because i always give in. She said she was considering to break up with mi, and asked mi if i am. The rain took so long to abate, it worsened my mood, i want to cry it all out again!
