Am i driven enough?

I was so reluctant yesterday during the mahjong game with the cathigh guys. I didn't want to play because firstly I think gambling is bad, and I know because I am not driven, I know I am just throwing money away.

But at least it did enlighten me to know how much one has to be inspired to get the things he want.

It reminded me of my past.

When I was in lower secondary, I remember how driven I was. Everytime I was spiked by somebody or event, somehow or rather I achieve amazing results. It's been true all the time. I remembered how I topped the whole stream in Sec 1 and 2 that people got really bored by the lack of competition. I was proud and at that time I had very little friends. When I went to the better classes in Upper Secondary, I stopped working so hard. I told myself I needed friends. I slacked and did very badly for my O levels. Juggling between both extreme between lots of time for work or friends was difficult for me. How? Until now, I am still figuring out.

But then, today, I felt the need to achieve. I think I slacked too much. Having got into medical school. How the hell I tell myself that I can do well if I remain in this mentality.

Two things I need to start comtemplating from now on.

1. Driven to the max for success.
2. Developing a loving heart for friends.

It is not an impossiblilty to manage your life in perfect cycles. I need to persevere! I need to strength myself further.
I know that fitting into the australian culture may be hard currently, but I will not let it affect me.
I will be less forgetful from now on and more focus in my work.