"Je l' aime ?", mais "Je commets ma vie sous l'emblème de croix rouge!"

Ever since I have gotten my place at Utas MBBS, a lot of things have been going through my mind. I ponder about my life, about whether its worth going for it, and leave the whole country behind.

Even though not related, I ponder over my relationships, especially the possibilies of a new relationship. I came to a conclusion that I am sad to say that my expectations have gone so high that what was build on earlier seems suddenly an impossible result. It is very easy for me to like anybody because of certain interesting attributes I suddenly discover. However, the attraction can easily die down once certain things irritated me. I gradually turn away leaving an unanswered question deep down in my heart.

Now, it seems to me that I would rather commit my whole life under the "red cross" emblem. I have found my priority in life. I have also realised that the dire medical situation affecting many people is not the availability for medical care but their access to it. Being a doctor doesn't only mean creating new cures or to cure as much people as possible but a need to change the political climate of the world to allow more acesss for some people to better healthcare. Resources may be scarce but we maximise it and bring down the cost. I salute to my coursemates who are in Bionengineering for whatever the reasons they are pursuing this course. It is because some of them will be the ones bringing new medical breakthrough to the world while knowing that its a lifetime sacrifice.