Its amazingly weird how everytime you are free, its hard to get people to go out. You give in, you call every possible people, even the impossible ones.You lazed the whole day, waiting for that call.

You watch that sun rises, hot and infuriating. You perspire a lot. The sun finally sets. Miraculously, your mobile rings.

Its time to rock in town.

枫叶就像思念，当冬季来临时，枫叶落下，思念便冻结在雪坡里。

Jay Chou's album is unbelievable !
Epecially the two songs below:

歌曲：发如雪 歌手：周杰伦 专辑：十一月的萧邦

狼牙月伊人憔悴我举杯饮尽了风雪
是谁打翻前世柜惹尘埃是非

缘字诀几番轮回你锁眉哭红颜唤不回
纵然青史已经成灰我爱不灭

繁华如三千东流水
我只取一瓢爱了解只恋你化身的蝶

你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美

你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑

rap:你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美

你发如雪纷飞了眼泪
我等待苍老了谁红尘醉微醺的岁月

啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦

铜镜映无邪扎马尾你若撒野今生我把酒奉陪

歌曲：黑色毛衣 歌手：周杰伦 专辑：十一月的萧邦

一件黑色毛衣
两个人的回忆
雨过之后更难忘记
忘记我还爱你
你不用在意
流泪也只想刚好合意
我早已经待在谷底
我知道不能再留住你
也知道不能没有孤寂
感激你让我拥有缺点的美丽
看着那白色的蜻蜓
在空中忘了前进
还能不能重新编织
脑海中起毛球的记忆
再说我爱你
可能雨也不会停
黑色毛衣
藏在那里
就让回忆永远停在那里

Must go and learn it asap to sing at kbox.. haha

By the way, my bunk mate, Jin Sheng sparked off my interest in dashing automobiles!
My dream car has changed from the cheap Mitsubishi Lancer to the top three car of my life:
1.R34 GTR Skyline turbocharged V6
2.Hyundai Tuscani 2.7 v6(A).
3.Nissan Cefiro 200JK 2.0(A)

I had the opportunity to sit in Marc's mum Tuscani 2.7 v6(A). The seating was so racer like, only of cos there is very little room for the back seat. Of course, the best thing is that it uses steptronic technology that allows you to burst through and overtake people at express way without worrying that you will hit a corner.

Hope my business plans with Jin Sheng will work out. Haha. Money is everything!!

Haha.
I went out with Tze Wee, Kenvin and gang today.We played tennis. Managed to get a common sport to play today, maybe to cure us from the addiction of lan gaming (despite that day we trashed Wee Poh for 3 matches... Woo Hah). Now, its time to invest in tennis rackets and tennis wear of course!

Also not to mention, beside to meet playing tennis, its HARRY POTTER showing time. Kenvin managed to book tickets for this week end. Haha, better than going to the stupid airport to fetch Cheryl!!!

We talked about Cheryl today. Kenvin said that I should be happy than I broke up with her cause she looks bad anyway. Actually come to think of it, I did try to mention to break up two years ago because of that reason. Now I don't even have to do anything! I hope she doesn't feel sad when I say all this things so bluntly. Haha! Don't know whats she's doing to herself. Going to club thinking that she is a good catch. But thats true, she is a good catch, quoting from kenvin's "easily attainable", Haha. I realised that I have been doing a lot of self improvement ever since she left me, whether the reason is to spike her or not, it doesn't matter. I think I like it for myself. Even ronnie says I have a good sense of fashion. Hehe! I think my mind is clearer now, cause last time, I think I lost myself in sacrificing too much for her.

By the way, I am currently talking to a girl through SMS I met at the Dental clinic last year. The girl allocated few beds away from me. I think she nice, the way she talks. Haven't try to meet her, its good to have a friend like her to talk my heart out. Feels so much better cause you can let out a lot! If you are seeing this, yes, its you!

I realised one thing for sure.
Even though from this incident, I broke up with Cheryl, I didn't lose much.
In fact I gained a lot.
I realised that there was so much for me to know, for me to learn and I was certainly not ready for adulthood.
I realised how I had missed out a lot of more important things while I was so engrossed with dating Cheryl. I learned how precious my parents were. I learned how even though I always felt lonely most of the time, I have a lot of supportive friends.

I love you Mum and Dad! My dad upon knowing that I am suffering from this problem called me up and tell me not to worry so much. He said that sometimes when you lose things, you don't eventually lose out, you may eventually get something better. There are many things in this world that goes aound and comes back to you. I thought that this was something that was ten times better than the conversation that I had with a counsellor from SAF on the phone(which was incredibly lousy). My NS friends, McVin, Ramash, Jin Sheng, Eugene, and not to mention Rachel, Becky, Tze Wee, Wee Poh and Xin Ping were there for me when there saw me feeling so down. They didnt exactly tell me what to do, they just wanted me to feel better in anyway they can.

Sometimes, I really worry for Cheryl.
Its just that I know her for so long and I know she is just all out to have fun. Maybe sometimes without the expense of thinking about the consequences.
I just hope she doesn't get into any trouble.
I think I have said too many things that have pissed her off too much. I am too serious with things while she sometimes just want to have fun. Maybe thats why she wants to break off with me.

Reading her blog gives me glimpse of what actually happened between the two of us and how she has changed and how our relationship has stained so much while she is in Australia.

I suddenly recalled how she was in Australia while I was in Brunei. Of how she cut her finger and she had only me to call for help. It made me realised how I was still important to her at that time and how I would still do whatever for her because I loved her alot.

But I think whatever we have gone through in the past would not strike a tingle in her ever again.
Even though she has no more feelings for me anymore, I would still love her for the way she is now, and would still keep to my promise to myself that I would do whatever I can in future to help her and care for her.

I seriously don't hope for much now.
I just want to learn to cherish the people whom I still have and look forward to life ahead.

歌手：周杰伦 专辑：七里香

借口

词 曲 编:周杰伦

翻着我们的照片
想念若隐若现
去年的冬天
我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸
对着我说再见
来不及听见
你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头
我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我
就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头
我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛
是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走
请你记得我

如果难过
请你忘了我

I was going through Jay Zhou's song on the net and i found a song that suits me and Cheryl state of relationship now exactly.
I told myself that I have to work harder to have her back.
I have to improve myself alot within this few weeks before she comes back. That includes taking care of my skin; making sure I apply derma cream everyday, keep myself hygenic, sleep early, try to speak properly in english, refrainining from using vulgarities, work out everyday to tone up my body, go shopping to buy new clothes; using fashion tips from magazines and of course read up more often.

Exactly it also feels good to realise that you can do so much things for yourself too.
I hope she realises the effort made ny me.

Also, I have thinking of taking up external courses during the weekends. I cannot decide whether to choose between a watercolour painting workshop in Nanyang Art Academy, speaking lessons in the Toastmaster club or taking up Japanese language lessons.

I will go and find out more using the time during these two public holidays.